serious social error

Clause 0.1

2006-06-09T00:45:00.000+10:00

May all my worldly possessions never need full time support.

Me masters

2006-05-10T22:11:00.000+10:00

Today Samantha and I had a drink at the pub...
We were on the phone...
It saved travel time...

Me masters.
Mr bloody masters.

Ok ok ok – I know the last three posts have been cock centric!

2006-04-13T19:32:00.000+10:00

But this is outrageous! And my participation so innocent..
http://thebreakfastblog.blogspot.com/2006/04/palate-prahran.html#comments
The breakfast bloggers just totally pretend that its all a nice picture of any old sausage. But! They do call the café a wank (4th word)… hmmm…. Good to see the breakfast bloggers are still looking for the best eggs in Oz.
Damn I hate couples with routines & I love this blog.

Google's my boyfriend

2006-04-07T22:32:00.000+10:00

vibrating mobile camera phone

2006-03-27T09:06:00.000+11:00

near to

2006-03-20T23:29:00.000+11:00

If it wasn't for an shit work environment that (thankfully) I can quickl forget - I would be happy.
I am almost happy.

She wore the bullaroo

2006-03-18T23:59:00.000+11:00

A Qantas flight attendant attended her hunger for chardonnay in uniform at the Golden Barley. Dressed in dot paintings of earth colours with meeting places and boomerangs; she was short, deathly thin, rubbery and sun kissed with bleach blonde hair. Her middle age, appearance and stature showed that she did not suit the Barley which was thick in its history of Labor hearts which sung from the bricks and the mortar. She paid for her wine by placing the exact money onto the counter. She pushed it forward.

She was a woman of good breading and good keeping thrust from the crib of her privilege.

“Look at them beautiful colours” said the Koori man amused by her. “Its got them bullaroo and all… oh, yeah… oh”.

The sun kissed lizard froze glaring at the bench tops waiting for service for her flight and safe entry into a new lonely flat where she could relax, numb her troubles and sleep like a baby in the chardonnay haze of her escape.

Some nights she cries, but not tonight – she is too tired.

Keep up the good job - we are so happy with you

2006-03-14T11:26:00.000+11:00

Well the promises so great
And the rewards will be huger
We just can't tell you when
... yet

We need to make a business case
But the business can't seem to manage to do that
But we will get there
And we need your help to do it
Just stick in there
Give us all that you have got and in the end
You will receive what we all want
And we will benefit greatly from what you have to offer us
So take your 3% and
Be greatful for what you get
This CPI increase is because YOU have done so well
By the way...
Our policies state we need more from you
Although we all agree that you do above and beyond
But we don't know what the future will look like yet
So what you do today that is required from us actually isn't in a plan
So we can't give you anything for it
Because we don't know that we need it
Even though you do it.
The business don't actually know what they need yet
They haven't allotted a budget

peace = civil liberties

2005-11-10T09:08:00.000+11:00

I want to live in a country that I may be proud of – a country that leads democratically by showing diplomacy. These laws only continue to perpetuate fear – a fear that has been generated and fed by Western and Middle Eastern countries alike. We must understand that where we use military force on poorer countries with little power to exercise their liberties they have little choice of retaliation and that terrorism, as the ministers and media have labelled it is in fact an act of war and should be treated like an act of war.

I believe in sustainable peace through understanding and negotiation. This war was never validated, it began without UN sanction and it continues to rage terror on a people on the other side of the world whom most of us have never met. We don’t think of their terror in our daily lives, we don’t speak of it.

This legislation is also an act of war. The invasion of civil liberties must be fought so that we can continue to live with the freedoms that Howard and Bush claim to be blowing up fanatics for. The people of the Western world must see that these governments are claiming to fight for freedom and liberty against tyranny off shore with a hard right fist, while reigning in the very freedom and liberty they premote on home soil with their left.

It is a sad and often shameful time to be an Australian as time and time again our government fails to listen to the people. The people didn’t want this war, the people didn’t want to aggravate – the people wanted peace. Civil liberties and peace are interlinked.

If our government lead for peace then we would be able to keep our civil liberties as well.

who's role in governance

2005-11-09T23:48:00.000+11:00

Its offensive that Bronwyn Bishop would worry so much about “head scarves” in the school yard when she swipes so much mascara down her face in “our parliament”.

Deja Vu U

2005-10-29T00:10:00.000+10:00

I’ve had all kinds of deja vu moments that have lasted long enough for me to know what is going to happen next. Sometimes I have had them frequently enough that I have felt many touch points to my parallel universes. It gives me the sense that I am in the right space for that time. Interestingly, we so rarely find touch points in these universes.

A few times this year, I have had these dejvu memories about things that I know are not about to happen, but in a way that I feel they are. I think I might be beginning to listen to my parallel lives without them meeting mine. This other life is significantly different where one of the forks in my road took turned out and I think that is part of the reason I still brood a little.

I got mojo!

2005-10-23T13:39:00.000+10:00

Its as exciting as sex!
Finally having mojo!
I’m yet to attract someone I like but the mojo is a big start. Its been well over six months since I have had the mojo go… stay tuned.

just a blog to store my thought

2005-10-12T10:13:00.000+10:00

I have been finding it very difficult to describe her behaviour and how it is offensive quite succinctly for a long time now. Partly because I didn’t want to buy into it / think about it / react to it / or most importantly be affected by it. Over the months the little things she does that I have been trying to ignore have begun to eat at me. While that sounds very strong, it is not that I am struggling to get by, more so that I want to be removed from this situation before I stand up for myself - which I believe will only result in an unresolvable situation. This writing is for me to have this clear in my head because before now I have found it hard to describe. The other reason for my difficulty in describing the behaviours is because of how indirect and passively aggressive it is. Here is my example: she will speak of how sick of that turquoise colour that is in right now, because she sees it everywhere. She will be speaking to a number of people in the room including myself, who is wearing turquoise. She does this to the people who are in a relationship, who have children or who may be politically/ religiously aligned in some way. She even buts into conversations to throw in the negativity and tell it “like it is” coz that’s just life. We all have our own opinions, and my favourite thing about the girls at work is our diversity it is the greatest asset of the group. However, her behaviour is always negative, stern, sharp and decisive. It is often a conversations stopper and is intolerable to diversity.
This behaviour is also coupled with touting about how she enjoys being rude to people, regular comments about how little respect she has for people and regularly rolling her eyes. Most importantly, it is directed and discriminatory toward particular personalities. For example, one person on the team’s sharing about their children will always without fail result in a negative comment about how that story has just affirmed that she will never have kids. To another staff member, her viewpoint is understood, but that doesn’t stop her from engaging in that conversation as something that is valued in by the person with whom she is speaking. That is the social relationship that underpins our working relationship. I do not often have to deal with her to get work done which is in some ways a bad thing as I have not been able to develop an understanding over time. At the moment, I feel like I need to brace myself to get something done. I prepare myself to be undermined, condescended and delivered obstacles. That is how I see others being treated and the attitude I have witnessed around me. She is not like this to everyone and I think if we were to consider this placing us into two groups, those who are treated poorly constantly and those who are not then we would find that it bares a relationship to who she needs for which I find very divisive.

Oh give me foundation

2005-10-02T19:59:00.000+10:00

THAT HAS CAFFEEN IN IT!
Oh, yeah maybelline !!!
??
>:]

say it with a chirp!!

(actually... perhaps I need to give them cred for the only global website I have ever seen that only recognizes New Zealand in Oceania. Aus isn't in Asia either... I guess I'm not going to find that perfect link to the caffeine-kick-start-your-face-foundation. )

Win a car

2005-10-02T19:57:00.000+10:00

There is a commonality to all of those who win Australian reality TV shows.
They all have humility.
Those with humility who don’t win we never see again.
Those who are larger than life may get entertainment contracts, but they never ever win the show.

No matter.
It is just incredible to see those faces transformed after a few weeks in ‘the competition’ gleaming for the audience to love them, or breaking down for being hurled off the ride. It is quite something…

How not to...

2005-09-17T14:38:00.000+10:00

A woman tried to pick me up last night.
It was very very strange.

She was acting all weird, like a nervous wreck… I think she might have been having quite a bit of anxiety. I went over and asked her if she was alright, coz she was looking sick and she said in broken sentences that I was “just so cool”. OK. It was horrible.
After that she locked herself in the bathroom.

An office appeal

2005-09-15T21:53:00.000+10:00

I hate the telephone

2005-09-09T23:09:00.000+10:00

I'm welling and my knees are bouncing gitters because he sounds just oh so so beautiful when he is sleepy.

tired n'

2005-09-08T19:56:00.000+10:00

morn

2005-09-02T23:55:00.000+10:00

New Orleans

2005-09-02T23:37:00.000+10:00

Samantha rang me today exclaiming “how’s with the Americans all shooting and raping each other!” No where else in the world do they behave like that in crisis she said…

I googled. All of the photos of the citizens are not white. What is the media perpetuating... seems to me the world is traveling backwards away from tollerance

happiness

2005-09-01T16:30:00.000+10:00

Today my father surprised me with lunch which was quite a surprise because he lives interstate.
Today I was able to hug my dad and drag him around by the hand. It is the nicest thing in the whole world.
Its really amazing to show someone such a great amount of happiness in seeing them and have that reflected back into your eyes.
It was the luckiest day....

Karma?

2005-08-28T17:52:00.000+10:00

I came the closest to sex than I have in ages today. I bumped into this guy that I went home mid fondle with over two years ago.

I guess if your not getting any you should at least be made to feel uncomfortable by your past.

Reasonable substitute?

Is this what I deserve?

miss

2005-08-27T03:03:00.000+10:00

I know I still cry, I know he can’t and I know that I’ll always be that girl and he will always be that guy.

Mel born

2005-08-27T02:16:00.000+10:00

Ineffective Donkey

2005-08-24T09:10:00.000+10:00

Can I just bitch... obviously I need my coffee... but the occasional "can we please discuss" email is very useful particularly when you are run off your feet and may forget, or you are unable to discuss right away and want your colleague to know it is coming up. However - overuse out of laziness is simply shirking off responsibility to others.

I declare that forthwith anyone who abuses this technique will have to pursue me for that discussion; I will not be their chasing donkey.

Actually, what pisses me off the most is that the culprit feels and thinks that they are doing their job effectively with timely response times. When I don’t respond she will think of me as ineffective – ah. That’s ok with me.

cranky bug

2005-08-18T21:15:00.000+10:00

The liver and pancreas have rested for a short time. (Mon, Tue & Wed) Tonight I am night capping with a Johnny Walker Red and dry. Mmmm...

My throat still hurts, but I'm off to Melbourne on Saturday… AND!! I get my camera back tomorrow! So that is good news for Ann’s going away party (news flash!) and it will be good news for both of my blogs. Particularly my secret missions – one of which is to sell strange things on e-bay… keep your eyes peeled. (more on that in the coming weeks.)

OH, BTW - My doctor told me today that the bug going around is quite "a cranky one"... so not to worry to much if I want to "have a little cry". So far, I don't think I have had enough energy for such emotions. You will be pleased to know that while my string is very short I have not cried.
:] - But I have spent a long time in bed.

More buttons…

2005-08-18T08:30:00.000+10:00

- nice guys win BB
- keep your opinion in your pants
- vote lads 2005
- Greg’s a model Australian.
- GO Logans!

estranged from work

2005-08-17T21:16:00.000+10:00

I have had three days off work- in all that means five days since I sat at the office. Now that I am at the end of my sick relief and beginning to feel a little better I recognize how removed I am from my work place. The idea that I will go back tomorrow is so abstract. I don’t think I have ever felt like this about one of my jobs before. It doesn’t really surprise me though, because in the past my work was always connected to my interests.

The chewlog has a new recipe for creamy potato garlic soup... to help with my sickness.

perplexed

2005-08-12T15:38:00.000+10:00

Where does your common sense come from?

Good Root Certificates PTY LTD

2005-08-12T11:32:00.000+10:00

http://people.vee.net/ann/archives/2005/08/10/its-official/#comments

Button philosophy

2005-08-11T23:02:00.000+10:00

I sooooo want a button*/ badge making machine.

- Majority rules normalicy
- Blog that!
- get kissed
- howard licks bush arse
- tell me about the truth

Etc, etc… bed time.

* I know button is American - but it is the only incident that their word is actually way cute.

BTW you can hire them from Flinders uni.. and I forget the other place – Adelaide uni? I don’t know… anyone know a hire place in Sydney? Or a cheepo option?

majority rules normalicy

2005-08-10T22:21:00.000+10:00

One of the part time workers occasionally eggs me on. Shaz, with an age to represent such a name is a nice lady who keeps to herself. Today she says to me- “I am looking forward to overhearing your next political discussion with the others.”

Right.

So it amuses her. She probably thinks - ah! youthful enthusiasm. I can tell you I am about as close to being an old self interested bag as anyone approaching 30.* But it is a luxury for people like me, because I don’t have a house or a car. I don’t have the family photo to call my own or a sweetie calling after lunch. Not even the bank calls me. **

Now, because I know Shaz is a little left like myself and is enjoying the shake up based on tending to agree more with the disturbance than the conventions of normalcy I conversed. I said that I find it frustrating that my coworkers are offensively bent on telling me the truth. She agreed that they are very black and white. IT IS tough to have a conceptual discussion with someone who is telling you about the truth, their truth. Like when people believe with all of their heart that their subjective opinion is very objective. It isn’t smart to call your co-workers right wing or selfish when they can’t see it. They are the right wingers who aren’t proud, they actually believe that they are free thinking perhaps even a little alternative.

Majority rules, so - take that!. How can the masses be wrong it just makes common sense. Doesn’t it?

“Yeah, but you have to remember that I spent two years listening to talkback radio. I have already heard the points being made.”

Lefties - make a right wing friend today!

** Ok, that statement may have made you feel a little uncomfortable. But think with me here a moment. If you are amongst my generation it happens around 30 - people begin to make the decisions about their life which will impact on who they are forever. This is an era when freedom can often end and security becomes important. How we do this for our family, responsibilities and mental fulfillment is perhaps not totally in place – but it starts here. Almost 30 is the beginning. (think Saturn return)

* I do however have mounting HECS, who is a like a sinister lover calculating all of your relationships financial exchange incase they want to take you to court should the relationship falter.

In time

2005-08-09T21:32:00.000+10:00

While I get better at forgetting him each day I still get overwhelmed by our lovemaking from time to time. As I charged home tonight on the train and down the south daggy end of King Street competing with last light - I could feel him as he is when he was on me and with me. I experienced again the surrounding feeling of the serene sea and the waves of energy flushing between us as we merged in and out of one another. He is still in my spiritual places where logic doesn’t prevail and it doesn’t seem to me day after day that I can do much but try and remain in distraction from this.

Changing the world

2005-08-08T12:02:00.000+10:00

Who do I write to if I want every Monday to be a public holiday?
I don’t think the PM would help.

Parallel universe?

2005-08-07T22:46:00.000+10:00

“Honey, could you do the dishes tonight – I’m pooped!”

“I wish you would pick up the bath mat!”

“He is so funny… just hopeless… oh ho hooo hoo ha.”

“We’ve started to date again”

“Babe! Can you find the keys?”

“Sorry love, I’ve got a headache.”

Oh god! I am stretching my imagination…

Road fork for weeks and months - don't let it be years!

2005-08-07T11:40:00.000+10:00

I am having the best hair day – and it is being ruined by nothing to do.

I spoke to my mother at 10:30 on a Saturday night for half an hour – does that make her my date? Just given that it is a Saturday – you know? Coz, don’t they call it date night?

I have the best hair – it is such a shame.

I am currently so personally challenged by things that are outside of my ordinary relation to the world. I am perplexed and bored at the same time. It makes for a placid intrigue. In my work- I feel like a foreign species speaking another language. With my friends I feel like a soap box artist. (because I am a creator of engaging soap box). In my thoughts I wish I felt like a stenographer.

I wore my heals for a time today because I like them making me to tall, despite the fact that I am opposed to them straining my well being and ligaments. I am not sure what will happen.

I have been in transit for too long. I have been in transit for months. I have been coming out of pain for months and I am feeling impatient. I am lonely. I am lucky, I have good busy friends. It is ok, I am beginning to become more interested in my own motivations in my free time again. I am learning to be better. I am sensitive to the amount of “I” in this paragraph.

Tonight I am downloading salsa music because it is my personal challenge in the next few weeks to feel comfortable dancing arm in arm with another. After this, I think I would like to take a cooking class. I would also like to enact on my dream to learn the trumpet. I think I will play with that froogle setting on this blog now incase some strange person from the other side of the world would like to make my dreams come true for a pair of my underpants.

To Central / Too Central

2005-08-05T12:41:00.000+10:00

Wynard to QVB to Central to UTS to Uni.
Uni to Central to Wynard to Pitt Street to Martin Place to 31st drinks with Alex.
Martin Place to George St to Central.
Central to Surry Hills to Ellies house to pub to another pub.
Another pub to Central to home.

You’d have really thought it central for the first time.

That is really cool... I can petition for her!

2005-08-03T16:41:00.000+10:00

Learn About Schapelle!
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Schapelle_Corby

Free Schapelle!
http://www.gopetition.co.uk/online/6530.html

Discuss Schapelle!
http://forum.arcadecontrols.com/index.php?topic=37193.40

Is Laughing about Schapelle ok?
http://www.abc.net.au/perth/stories/s1393075.htm

Other Australians who remain uncharged in foreign jails:
http://www.fairgofordavid.org/htmlfiles/main.htm

“Foreigners” in Australian detention...... google - refugee.

Faux

2005-07-27T22:58:00.000+10:00

There has been a corporate miss adventure in my world.

Today my favorite girl at work raised a few fake flowers that I had given her ages ago - not for their beauty, but their humor… She wanted to throw them in the bin after hiding them in her draw based on the fear that someone may realize I had stolen them from the board room on Level 27 for my hair (which I never ended up using).

Now rationally… it is my view that from a mixed bunch of fake flowers noone would notice. They wouldn’t recognize them, or notice/miss them missing in the first place… this was NO BIG DEAL. (but funny and fun for everyone who knew about it – and everyone knew about it so… blah)

After letting her know I wouldn’t be offended if she threw them in the bin, a woman (my manager) who I work with said that she thought I should put them back where they came from. Fair enough as an opinion but...

There were only truly two options for me… hook into the “it’s a knock out” challenge of actually getting them back unsuspiciously… or just say no. I could have had fun. But based on the belief that this was in fact a personal issue (about valus and more so peer pressure) AND the fact that the lady was power tripping I chose to just say no.

My colleague, the lady boss who was with me and laughed as I nicked the flowers acted all mighty and said “as your manager…”. Well, that is the first time I have ever heard that language from her!!! Oh, that is right, she pulled that line out after I had said “as an adult I will assess my own values”… ah ha ha ha…

I didn’t return the flowers. It will be forgotten tomorrow. But fuck the idea that some manager can inflict on my values. (Don't I do enough of that just being there!)

These flowers just don’t shake my consciousness. That was my last word.

It was trivial.

body count

2005-07-26T13:13:00.000+10:00

I have added the Iraq body counter to my log below.

Office orgy

2005-07-25T23:14:00.000+10:00

Call me trash, but it is true.
True!!
I am trash… te he.
Seriously, I went to send an email today from my “corporate” email and almost made one of those ‘automated spell checker’ mistakes. I shorthanded org (obviously organise or organisation) If your smart, you will have guessed...

Yep, suggested replacement word – orgy.
__

Today I began my chewlog… it is now listed in the nav. This is for the recipies and the recipe times only.

Knitted Scrunchy

2005-07-23T15:45:00.000+10:00

Keeping it below board

2005-07-23T14:17:00.000+10:00

There were little poo nuggets left in the loo yesterday.

- no photo

Ms My Pants

2005-07-22T20:10:00.000+10:00

I have been wearing these pants for a long time (over six months) with a broken fly. I am quite sure that noone has noticed - based on the fact that noone has said my shop was open. Who knows... I wore them again today.

Mr Pants

2005-07-20T22:15:00.000+10:00

What can really be said about Mr pants here? All I can say is that I felt very naughty taking this picture. It was among the first of my "football series" - a study of the rare football adventure that I documented last weekend.

Actually all that I can say is that newspaper is nestled pretty far down his pants!